this is it....

for the next 11 weeks i will be leaving my house by 7am to learn to become a firefighter. this is the first time i will EVER be away from my children this much. i've been gone 3 8-hour days before...but that's it. it just hit me tonight on the way home from an Easter celebration how much i'm going to miss them. i won't be there when they wake up. i won't be there to help them pick out breakfast. i won't be there for lunch. i won't be there for naps. i won't be there when they play all day. i'll miss wonder pets, superwhy, diego, dora, seasame street and all the other shows. no more playtime at the park in the middle of the day...the weekends will be super busy. i'll miss dropping jacob off at school and walking him in. i'll miss the "hiding" he does from mrs. renaud when he gets in there. i'll miss seeing the other kids waving and saying hello to me. i won't ever pick jacob up from school in the middle of the day again. i'll miss dropping him off on his last day of school.

i'm very sad right now. i'm excited to embark on this adventure. i'm excited to find a career and to begin the rest of my life with a new career. but i'm so sad that after nearly 6 years of being home with my children almost full-time, that it's coming to an end. yes...it's only 11 weeks. but it'll be the longest 11 weeks of my life!

i complain about my kiddos. but make no mistake, i love them more than life itself. i would step in front of a moving ANYTHING to save them. they are my life, without them i would never be complete. i would be empty. they make our marriage and family perfect. i wouldn't trade them for the world (most days:). i love them. i love them. i love them.

i already can't wait until 5pm tomorrow night...and they are all still awake upstairs....